deviant confessions

2006-12-07T01:18:00.000-08:00

i really dont know what's happening to the world now. . he's being so distant to me. . i dont know what to do!! well, anyways, it's the start of our 3-day celebration of our FOUNDATION DAY in school. . it's gonna be another tiring day. . haay. . :D

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ooh shit!

2006-11-24T03:19:00.000-08:00

people are really going ballistic with their lives now! there are too many people who have nothing to do but ruin other people's lives. well, KARMA is just around.. and it'll come out if it wants to play NONSENSEs' games!

pacquiao day!

2006-11-18T17:36:00.000-08:00

8th and Ocean!

i ♥ this show!

it's on MTV, saturdays - 7:30 pm

check it out!

fashion.

and fashion! :]

check out my new blog!

ouch.

2006-11-12T19:04:00.000-08:00

why is he acting so wierd? haay.. where in the world is his brain? :(

yipee!

2006-11-10T02:23:00.000-08:00

i was damn bored today. i have been facing the pc for about 12 hours now. haha. :] well, i guess, everything would still be the same tomorrow! haha.

no class

2006-11-09T02:58:00.000-08:00

yea! NO CLASS tomorrow. thanks to NYD. haha. :]

2006-11-07T05:58:00.000-08:00

hello world! haha. :] im back! after 48 years, i have recovered my password! haha. foolish! anyways, there's nothing interesting that's happening in my life now kaya i would just post quotes from my friends. here it goes:

***

Oprah said: Leaving a love you've suddenly outgrown can be heartbreaking, but it also shows you're strong enough to walk away from a relationship that no longer makes you happy. Moving out of your comfort zone can be downright scary, but it also proves just how brave you are to take on the unknown. Stronger, braver and wiser. You always do a little growing up everytime you do a little letting go.

***

I want to be someone's last call of the night and his first thought in the morning.

I want those 5-hour conversations that end in: "No, you hang up first."

I want the heart-racing, palm-sweating, what's-gonna-happen-next moments.

I want the hugs that he never wants to let go off and the stolen kisses that are always the sweetest.

But most importantly, i want someone i can think of as mine and mine ALONE. :]

***

"I had let go of what i thought was mine. It hurts, yes, a lot actually. But getting through each day without him made me realize that the world will just keep on turning and i have to continue breathing even if he's not around. So i got to moce on. Face the world after he ruined it, and prove that i can be better than what i used to be, back when he was still with me."

***

Natural Highs:

Laughin' so hard your face hurts.

Driving on a pretty road.

Hearing your fave song on the radio.

Running through sprinklers.

Laughing about nothing at all.

Having someone tell you, you're beautiful.

Waking up and realizing you still have few hours left to sleep.

Having someone play with your hair.

Sweetdreams.

Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

Holding hands with someone you care about.

Watching the expression on someone's face as he opens a desired gift from you.

Knowing that somebody misses you.

Getting a hug from someone you care about.

Being in love..

..and knowing you've done the right thing no matter what other people think.

***

A faithful husband was drunk, he doesn't know what was happening sround him. Upon going home, he directly entered the room and slept. Morning came, with the amaze on his face, everything's in order, tablet of aspirin & a glass of water with a note: "Good Morning Hon! I'll just buy groceries for our dinner! Have your breakfast. I love you!" He was wondering why was that so, even though he was drunk last night. He asked his son, "What happened last night? Why is this so? Your mom should be angry. Son replied, "Mom tried to uncloth you but you said, Stop! I'm married! :]

***

Sintomas ng PINOY LOVE:

As if walang pakialam pero deep inside, worried na, miss na miss na.

Pag nagtext, so-what? daw pero later magre-reply din naman.

Pa-erase-erase pa ng number kunwari pero hello? memorize naman yung number.

Pag may nagawang mali, mag-gagalit-galitan pero konteng lambing lang, bibigay din naman.

***

That's it! Hope you had fun reading it specially the sintomas ng PINOY LOVE. haha. :]

sportsfest.

2006-10-13T17:44:00.000-07:00

the last day of sportsfest was sooo full of fun! :] haha. i enjoyed everything. i thought, it would be boring, but i was wrong. the championship game of the pink panthers and the red cupids basketball boys was so breath-taking! :] i almost lost my voice, squeeking! haha. it wasnt worth it coz pink panthers lost. ='( but it's ok. PINK PANTHERS anyways, was the OVER-ALL CHAMPION for the highschool department. whee! :] our team, the pink panthers basketball girls grabbed the 2nd placer spot. not bad, eh? :] thanks to all those who supported us! char! :] haha. i had fun with this year's sportsfest! i wish, this wouldn't end. unfortunately, we'll have regular classes again starting monday. hahai. so sad. ='( our classroom's like hell! haha. just kidding. :]

s-u-c-c-e-s-s

2006-10-12T03:46:00.000-07:00

PINK PANTHERS .. RELIVED!

haha. kidding. i'm sooo happy. we won our very last and final game! i cant believe it! i had 2 points! whee! :] that was my very first shot during a game.

Congratulations, Pink Panthers!

farewell.

2006-10-06T02:37:00.000-07:00

sir puno's going to leave smad na talaga. everyone would surely miss him! smad's not going to be the same again. i wish, this is just a dream. we'll miss him so much! our school's not complete without him! ='(

admu rocks!

2006-10-04T04:02:00.000-07:00

haay.. its been quite long since i have posted here. im getting lazy. brain's not working na. haay.. ADMU still ROCKS! chamba lang ang panalo ng UST! haha.. sportsfest up in the corner. im excited! our 8th monthsary's on the last day of the sportsfest. im not gonna go to school. we're going out! wahaha. :] im still lazy. pasensya na. basta ADMU ROCKS! cheers to JC Intal, Chris Tiu, Doug Kramer, Macky Escalona and Jai Reyes!

sigh.

2006-09-25T03:19:00.000-07:00

we lost another game. i was super disappointed. i thought we would win. i did my best - we did our best! we had teamwork. isnt it enough? i think, its unfair. yea, i cried after the game. i dont care if you call a cry-baby. i just cant accept the fact that we lost. all those hardwork we had during the first quarter was gone during the rest of the game. we have no chance to win. our next game's on october 9. our opponent's good. i think, we have no chance to win. i want to win - everyone does. but why is it like this? i was quite happy naman that kim tesoro trusted me during the game. i was disappointed coz we did everything but our everything was not enough. ill try my best next time. i know im not the only player and i know im not good. in fact, i really dont know how to play. i just do whatever kim tells me to do. i just follow whatever they say. i just do whatever i see during basketball games. i hope, i hope, next time, we would win.

sad.

2006-09-23T18:50:00.000-07:00

i think, im gonna lose him.

exhausted.

2006-09-20T04:00:00.000-07:00

i just arrived home from school. so much happiness can be seen in my eyes. :] we haven't fought today. he gave me a hug. haha. oh well, i was really happy. more more more. i passed CL unit test. i got 42. :] not bad, eh? im super tired when i arrived home. i wanna throw myself on my bed, we had a basketball training. our next game's postponed again on Monday. it was scheduled tomorrow, then on Friday, then FINAL na raw on Monday. btw, its our Reco on Friday. im expecting many letters. haha. :] im not forcing people to give me naman. i just wanna see how many could remember me. hihi. :] i may be idle but im not invisible. what in the world am i talking about!? haha. :] anyways, pasensya na. im just out of my mind. maybe because im experiencing a mix of emotions right now. excited, happy, tired and of course, in love - di naman tlaga yan mawawala eh. haha. miss ko na nga xa eh! hahai. i wanted to wait for him til they're done with their training. btw, i was making impress to him during our training coz we were only in one gym and that's the only gym in our school. they were on the other ring while we are on the opposite. i got two (2) shots! haha. :] i had so many airballs. teehee. beginner naman kasi. im not really good at playing. but anyways, all i wanted to say is i love my baby sooo much! haha. :] another is letters ko sa Reco, wag niyo kalimutan! thanks! :]

unusual.

2006-09-17T01:14:00.000-07:00

its so weird. im writing this entry - crying. :'( i dont know what i did. all i know, he was all mad at me. i was trying to ask what was wrong, he wont tell me. he keeps on saying, "wala!" i cant understand him. i cant stop crying. i dont know what's happening. i cant understand him. he tells me he wants to sleep, then, after i tell him sweetdreams, he'd change his mind! im confused. i've said the word sorry for about 5 times na. and he just simply replies ok lang. i dont understand him! i dont know if he's tired, missing something or mad! haai.. i wish this would end. i wish he knew how much I LOVE HIM! i cant stand moments like this.

oh so boring!

2006-09-16T04:40:00.000-07:00

i cant believe it! i survived staying at home for the whole day! :] haha. i just sat in front of the PC - all day long. my eyes are quite blurry na. but i dont care! kesa naman ma-bored ako. haha. :]

i made a new multiply account. :] due to my boredom, i made this account. haha. here's the link, btw:
http://fajbelen.multiply.com

disclaimer (for my multiply account):
1. if you find photos that are offending, PM me. here's my email: superman_buff@hotmail.com
2. if you hate my site, better leave.
3. if you want some of my pics, PM me first or let me know. thou shall not steal!
4. id be happy, if you post some comments. :] lurveyah!

and...

for those who want to know my everyday experiences, my blog's for public view. :] here's the link:
http://deviantconfessions.blogspot.com

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5. id be happy, if you'd tag me or post some comments. :] lurveyah!

thanks for reading the disclaimer. :]
muah. muah.

`FAJEEtitoot`

i just found this.

2006-09-15T21:54:00.000-07:00

what is SEXY?
sexy is standing in the rain with someone and letting that someone push you against the hood of your car, tearing your shirt, as he kisses you with the intent never to stop.

what is CUTE?
cute is young and inexperienced. it's holding hands in the car and kissing at the red lights.

what is PASSION?
it's knowing what you want and stoping at nothing til you get it.

what is LOVE?
it's the balance of all of these things. in your mind, heart, body and soul.

find that someone who'll LOVE you and stay with you even if heaven and earth collide. :]

s'amuser bien.

2006-09-15T01:58:00.000-07:00

what in the world am i doing in the middle of a ball game!?

yea. too bad, we lost! that was fun. a good experience. but i was totally embarrassed! i hate what happened to me. i got a bruise! it hurts a lot. my knees are painful. i'm not gonna tell! haha. :] just figure it out yourself. too embarrassing too expose! teehee! :p oh, well. all day, i was thinking bout what would happen during the game. thinking bout those steals, rebounds, free throws and whatever terms they use on that ball game. i never focused on discussions. my mind is there outside, imagining anything - flying in the air. eek! my wrong-grammar syndrome comes out again! haha. :]

btw, i guess, we lost by 10pts. haha. :] i earned no points at all! haha. but i had 2 steals. :] at least, i tried my best! that was intense!

oh, btw, units2 kami sa sportsfest! more exciting and challenging. pink, blue, red and green. nice colors, eh!? we're the PINK PANTHERS. haha. weird noh!? wala lang. im still out-of-my-mind. haha. :] cge, til next time!

ciao,
faj :]

oooh.. whee!

2006-09-14T03:06:00.000-07:00

this day was not fine as i thought it would be. weird people get into my nerves - every minute, every second. i noticed people tease me or make asar which is not normal. i'm usually the one who do that thing to them.

IM NERVOUS. yes, i am. i dont know what would happen tomorrow. im nervous of many things. questions running on my mind. what in the world am i doing in the middle of the basketball court, a ball in hand, running anywhere and aiming for a shoot? dumb question. why haven't i thought about this for a long time? i wanna QUIT! nonsense! why do i have to be with eekieeeee! aha! never mind who that was. you'd NEVER know naman eh! :] oh well, i guess, i really have to take the risk and do whatever i was ought to do!

btw, UNIT 3 won today's advance game for basketball. :] good thing. i was quite happy. but im still in the state-of-shock on those weird things people do! haha.

en tout cas,
i should be the only one to LOVE my boyfriend!! :] drama.

xoxo,
faj :]

HAPPY MONTHSARY!

2006-09-13T02:50:00.000-07:00

haha. we're 7 months and still STRONG! yep2. u read that right. im soooooo happy! haha.

oh, wala lang. im just really in love today. teehee.. :]

oh well, nothing much have happened today. minalas lang naman ako. haha. yes, i had a mix of good and bad luck! hahai. b*llshit people at home, fcuk*n people in school, pissing teachers! augh! i hate people being so immature. sobrang nakaka-high blood! gosh, i think, my brain's gonna explode in a minute now. i can't stand the frustrations and all. i'm pissed off by those deviant minds around me.

since, today's our monthsary, i should not act like this but they make me go crazy and mad over petty things which i think was NEVER right. i hate being addressed as a hard-loser because im NOT!
things got worse as the day continued, natagusan lang naman ako. and worse was my skirt was wet all through the half of the afternoon class. i have to sit down the whole time but really, i was never ashamed of having tagos because im a GIRL. it so embarrassing if you're a guy. think foolish! haha. :]
moving on, i was scanning this magazine. i found my dream dress for the PROM! haha. it's still too early but i love this "Barbie-like" dress. it's so cuuuuuute! :] that was the only material stuff that made me smile for the day ASIDE FROM my BABY!

i just hope this day would end fine. i still want to end it with BIG SMILES. kasi monthsary eh. who in the world wouldn't be happy on days like this naman dba!?

*7mo*

im missin' something!!

2006-09-08T18:33:00.000-07:00

i miss this!

when will i ever have my next hug!?
i MISS HIM sooo much!

i cant watch his game today! :'(
i cant see him play.
i cant be with him!

grr!
i guess, we'll see each other on monday pa.
i CANT wait!

* i had a bad day *

im still alive! :]

2006-09-08T04:27:00.000-07:00

haha. yea! im still alive.
im just too tired to post new entries. haha. :]

well, well, well.
it's Mama Mary's birthday.
we had a mass.

then, off to UIC.
i had fun during the "3-day cheering" haha.

breathtaking performances.
thrilling ball games.
exhausted cheerers! haha. :]

here's the results:
Basketball:
Boys - 3rd place.
Girls - 3rd place? 2nd?

Volleyball:
Boys - Champion.
Girls - 3rd place.

Neo-Ethnic:
Champion.

Modern Dance:
2nd place.

Cheerdance:
dont mention it. :] hehe.

yan lang ang alam ko. pasenxa. :]

Marisians are good sports.Ü

The Promise.

2006-08-27T04:21:00.000-07:00

he kept his promise!

i was so happy.
FINALLY, NANALO NA TLAGA ANG CADET!

sobra. ang happy ko tlaga.
wala lang.
sabi kc ng baby ko na ipanalo na raw nia ang game for me.
charous! haha.

uhm, i was thankful!
nyaha.Ü

*hapeee*

ABNORMAL day.

2006-08-24T04:18:00.000-07:00

i hate this day.

i thought it would be fine.
it started as usual busy day.

PA - comlab.nothing interesting
CL - paraliturgy.i was sleepy
FILIPINO - noli quiz.i think i got 7
ENGLISH - boring poem discussion.but i had fun listening to her karabao english accent
SOCIAL - groupings.also boring
CHEM - happy.nag-discuss na tlaga. finally.
MUSIC - indigenous instruments.it was fun
MATH - just had a drill.so quiet

it rained at around 5pm.
i was soaked.
the sky was dark as early as 5pm.
hahai.

*deviant*

not a nice week.

2006-08-22T05:05:00.000-07:00

since sunday (til today - tuesday), im not in my mood.

we keep on fighting.
i was about to lose hope and i thought he'd really leave me.

I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!
i cant live without him.

*paramnesia*

street dancing FUN!

2006-08-19T04:07:00.000-07:00

street dancing.

first, it was boring.
haha. i was wrong.
i had fun... TOTALLY!

i didn't go to school.
hihi. kapoi kya.
i prefer watching the street dance with...
... ehem! haha.

si mr. pogi.Ü
wahaha. graxa galing manila.
joke. sshhh.. bisita namin.
sa bhay n2log.

aba, walang bibig ang mokong!
sobrang quiet.
nakakabingi.
but he's super puti.
chinese raw eh.

anyways, nung na bored na kmi.
naghanap ng casino ang gwapo.
yep, you read it ryt.
nagka-casino cla.
actualy, parents nia lang.
ayaw nga san nyang sumama eh.

gusto pa ata akong gawing yaya nun.
hmph! ayoko nga.
buti nalang di nagtanong kung pde xang sumama skin sa mall.

duh, di naman kc ako pde sa casino noh.
pero ganda sna kung may experience. haha.

***

after magmall, uwi, xempre.
eto, nagne-net. boring eh.

ah bsta.
cge.
till next time.Ü

*ciao!*

kadayawan morning.

2006-08-17T17:23:00.000-07:00

*yawn*

still sleepy. bored.
i woke up early. i don't know why.
i still wanna sleep but i might miss anything.

visitors. from cagayan de oro daw.
maglilinis ng bahay. kakapagod!

walang planong lakwatcha.
boring tlaga.
mag-iinternet nalang cguro ako buong araw.

may meeting daw bukas ang filclub officers.
wala naman akong slip. di nalang cguro ako pupunta.
kapoi. boring rin. 1-5pm. mxadong matagal.
bka makatulog pa ako dun.

wala akong magawa.
patxt2 nalang kay baby.
preho kaming bored.

nakikinig nalang ako ng stars.
gusto nia ata un na kanta eh.
maganda rin naman.Ü

mas bgay samin ang u are the one.
o pde narn ang dreaming of you.
augh! corny na.

grabe ang quotes na send ni tom.
maka-igo! haha.
abnormal ba mga tao ngaun!?

anung problema ng mundo?
bat ang tahimik.
... kc kadayawan!
nah! naloko na!

hahai. cge2.
babalik nalang ako mamaya.
wala na akong msabi.

pang limang balik na ng stars sa player ko.
wala pa akong planong i-stop.
nahawa na ako sa ka-abnormalan ng mga tao dito!
haha.Ü

*sophisticated*

special people.

2006-08-17T04:08:00.000-07:00

mga taong mahirap makalimutan.

they're always there whenever im down.
... when i have problems.
... when i need someone to talk to.
... when i need a friend.

> my baby.
> the only person i always think about.
> i love him. he loves me.
> he's one-of-a-kind.
> JAN PATRICK SACAY.

xa ang boyfriend ko. basketball player. 13 - number ng jersey nia. date rin na sinagot ko siya. mabait. caring. respectful. takot magpaiyak ng babae. bestfriend ko dati, ngaun boyfriend na. abnormal rin to, parang ako. seloso. palatawa. seryoso rin minsan. cute daw xa - totoo naman ata! lalo na pag naka-smile. nakaka-inlove!? haha. lambing. good boy. mabait na kuya. magaling mag basketball. idol ko nga eh. masarap kasama, kausap at mabuting kaibigan. joker. makulit rin. love ko.Ü

> friends ko.

> mahal ko ang mga to!

> parati kong kasama.

> LOLIGURLS.

sila ang mga friends ko. barkada ko. mahilig mag-lakwatcha. LOLIGURLS - pangalan ng barkada namin. maraming chai sa amin. pero di ako kasali. sina daphne & kayan lang. haha. mga shopaholic - yana, ako, grace, & thea. ang basketball varsity - shawie. ate ng barkada - krisleen. may kambal pero nasa first year - kimberly. malikot - alam nio na un, si angeline. prangka - queenie. joker - jerica. mga mirror girls - magpinsang camille at iris. ang swimmer - farida. ang intsik - nauie. masaya. mahilig kaming maglaro. palatawa. abnormal mag-isip ang iba, kasali na ako dun. malikot. boy-hunters, nahawa na ako. haha. loko lang. love ko mga to!Ü

*friends forever*

new blog. new life.

2006-08-17T02:15:00.000-07:00

haha. that wasn't funny. well, i really enjoy having blogs pero u know na. i had a bad experience about it before. sa walang alam, well, now u know. haha.Ü

oh, well. its the 17th of august, 2006. last day of periodical test. tapos na tlaga ang chem! haha. masaya na ako.Ü

boodels. lunch. nkita namin si ogie with his family.

mall. chunkee 3-on-3 basketball. alvin patrimonio was there. so tall. kainggit!
badtrip. tinawagan na sobra na raw ang lakwacha! grr. fcuk!Ü
another badtrip. nalapsan ko sa mall. first time.

that's it for today. boring ang araw ko. walang ka sense-sense.
abnormal na araw to! hahai.

*abnormal*